2013...what a great year!

So...this last year, 2013...what an amazing year! So many awesome things have happened, and I am too excited to see what this next year will bring!  Lets see...well, I had a wonderful surprise in January when I found out that I was pregnant...only to miscarry in February.


 Since that gave Jon and I a reality check, we decided that we really should get married and have children since we wanted to start a family, and we wanted to do it right! So, we planned our wedding...for APRIL!!!! Yes, we got married!

 It was a beautiful wedding on the Beach, just what I always wanted. And I had a surprise visit from my Uncle Mike, and Victoria Parker! Then we got to spend our Honeymoon in none other than Disneyland!!! We also decided to go to the San Diego Zoo and Sea World as well. It was a lot of fun.

Well, after we got our life started together, we just had a lot of fun this entire year. We got to go to Comic Con for our first time. Saw the main cast of Captain America!!! Even saw Samuel L Jackson! We also got to see the cast of True Blood, American Dad and Family Guy. I think that out of all we liked, the Cartoon Artists and the Voice Actors were the best! We got to hear/see Grey DeLisle, Kari Wahlgren, Fred Tatasciore, Scott Menville, Christopher Cox, Michael Leon-Wooley and a special appearance by Chuck McCann! We only ended up going for just the one day (Saturday), but next year we plan at least three days. 

Jon won both of his Powerlifting Competitions! Such a huge accomplishment for him, I am very proud!

 Well, after that we did Disneyland again for my birthday, and also it was Halloween themed as well. Dressed up as Alice in Wonderland for Halloween, Jon decided to do Raphael (TMNT). It was classic! Thanksgiving with Jon's dad and Lori. Andy decided to move down from Reno and stay with us for a while, he was planning on moving to Austin, TX eventually...so we'll see how that pans out. Both of us got our first Tablets! I got the Surface Pro 2, and Jon ended up getting the Dell Venue 8 Pro. Love them both! 

  I decided to start doing Crossfit, and boy do I love it so much! I don't think I'll ever join another gym in my life. I get to meet awesome people, and become stronger!

We decided to also see Medieval times in Buena Vista, where I got to hold the actual Legend of Zelda Master Sword and Shield!!! Then another awesome Disneyland trip, this time it was Christmas themed.

 Christmas was with Jon's mom and Bill...that was so much fun! Got Jon his Xbox One and some other fun stuff, and here we are...the end of the year. Lets do this 2014!

My New Life

2012-Year in Review

Well, here I am, almost a year later from my last post, and now that I look back, I am so blessed in the things that have come my way. I find I have the most wonderful life. This last year I moved 530 miles with my beloved dog Chai to be with my boyfriend. We've shared our one year anniversary, each-others birthdays, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years! We also got a Hulk Truck and a nice Condo that were living in now...still only a 10 min walk to the beach! I am now a full California girl...got my drivers license, hotwheelz plates, and even changed my phone number!
In my move here to beautiful southern California, I have lost as well. My family seems so distant and unwelcoming. My mother hasn't talked to me in months, and my brother disowned me for silly reasons that I fear he will only regret in the coming years. I am still in contact with my 'foster' parents. I do talk to them here and there. I am so happy that they are still in my life. I miss all my friends very much, so I might plan a trip to see them!
My job is very good...I actually quit the job that I got when I moved here and got another the next day. Pretty amazing in this economy! Love my new job, it's the same thing I was doing before...banking...but it's full time now, and I'm still in the position where I'm not going to advance to anything or make anymore money anytime soon, as in the next 5-10 years or so. So I still need to get on board with a career. Which brings me to my next stop...school! I have applied at the community college here and I have gotten approved for a student aid. I have also taken the placement tests so I know where to start. I have only to do an orientation class and also take a academic advising class in order to proceed with taking my actual classes to start my path of getting a degree. I think that a lot of people don't think that I was going to go this far, cause whenever I mention what I've done it seems to surprise everyone. I need to do this, and finish this...this is my new goal this year as well as getting myself out of the crazy debt-hole that I've seem so create.

Diet and fitness is good...although fitness needs a lot more work. I seem to lack motivation at times to go to the gym, and on top of that I feel embarrassed to go as well. I just don't like being there when there is a lot of people, and since it's the new year, the gym's are usually crammed up by new years resolution people. It should calm down a bit within a month. I just need to kick my butt into gear and go!
So this last year has taught me much, and I still have more to learn. This next year I have many plans and I look forward to a lot of adventures. I want to be a bit more active in doing things like hiking, camping, walking on the beach...I also want to take a trip to Reno to see all my friends that I miss so much! I need to get this school thing going for me this next year, seriously get it going. Comic-Con is also in the works, and we hope to get tickets to go in July. Disneyland, and San Diego this year hopefully too...and planning for a future with my boyfriend.Yeay for 2013!!!

Libra Outlook for 2013!

Libra

2013 brings you nothing short of a total rebirth, Libra. You can finally bid farewell to the heavy and austere presence of Saturn in your stars since late 2009. You have had enough lessons in love and commitment to last you a lifetime. Now you're ready to put those lessons to the test by pursuing your true calling and passion. No longer will you be satisfied with simply scratching the surface of life. You're prepared to go as deep as necessary to create something of lasting value. You want nothing less than the truth, and nothing short of profound meaning.

You'll be putting more attention and importance on finances than you have in a long time now that Saturn has moved on to your money zone. This is the year to finally work on a budget and devise sound economic strategies for increasing your income without working yourself to the bone. This is an excellent time to get out of debt as much as you possibly can so that you can save your pennies for the whirlwind of change on deck in 2013. The eclipses will rock your money sectors, so be prepared for sweeping gains and losses, and plan accordingly.
You'll continue to break out of any codependent relationship ruts with the ongoing influence of Pluto and Uranus sparring in the cosmos. You've certainly learned how important it is to value your authenticity and independence in all of your dealings with others. No longer will you fall prey to being too nice. You see how crucial it is to set your limits, draw your lines in the sand and commit without wavering. Saturn taught you to get off the fence and take a firm stand. This is how you gain respect. Your diplomacy and charm will always serve you well, but you realize now that they must be backed by the iron fist in the velvet glove.

The End...

My old life, me...living in Reno, is officially over! I moved, yes...to be with my boyfriend in Santa Barbara! So I will start fresh and new. No more depressing stuff, or feeling down like crap, no more cold days and nights, no more trying to drive in the snow, no more 100 degree summers...goodbye, the Biggest Little City in the World. I just have to say, that I am very blessed...and will now be starting a new blog! Hello Santa Barbara; The American Riviera, or I should say Goleta; The Good Land! I'm goin California Crazy!

Libra Outlook for 2012

Libra

Although many have secretly been dreading the arrival of 2012, you've personally been looking forward to it. That's because karmic taskmaster Saturn has been doing a number on your life over the past two-plus years. Relationship lessons have been relentless throughout this time. If you haven't made important decisions about where to commit - and where to quit - these are your final months to do so. Don't wait another 30 years to get clear on what you truly want in your relationships. You'll be in the throes of Saturn's testing until October, when it moves into your neighboring sign, Scorpio. Consider this your final exam!

Jupiter will be in its fellow Venus-ruled sign of Taurus, making a magical aspect to your stars for a good portion of 2012. Jupiter's lucky presence in your sector of sexuality, transformation and other people's money brings every material and emotional resource you could ever want or need. You'll have no problem attracting the proper support to fund your current or future projects. This is also the year for coming into your true power by transforming all the dead weight of your past. Change looks good on you, Libra. You've been shedding layers of karma, and now you're about to reap the wonders of renewal.

World travel beckons in 2012, so pack your bags! The spring-summer eclipse patterns activate your travel sector in May and June, and Venus is in your travel sector between April and August. During the retrograde phase in May and June, you may want to be lay low or avoid more intricate itineraries. Mars will be spending the entire first half of the year in your sector of sleep, unconscious processes and dreams. This could create some inner turbulence (if not all-out insomnia) if you don't give yourself enough expressive and physical outlets. As always, it's about finding balance, Libra.

Autumn is here...

Finally too! I love the fall, except it just a preparation for everything that's going to die or dying. But everything is so beautiful, the colors and the air. At least where I live, the one week of spring we get and the month of fall is the best time here.

Reno to Santa Barbara

Actually its more like Sparks to Goleta...but hey, its close enough. So....life! Well, lets see...from my previous rant, I actually found my older/mature guy. Yup!-- and no, I didn't rush-into-another-relationship-just-to-have-companionship-situation either! Although I am a lot more cautious than I was with the last couple of guys thou!!!

...But lets just say that it doesn't get any more perfect than a Keebler, and I'm not talkin about the cookies even thou he's good enough to eat like a cookie! So if you haven't guessed, that guy from Cali, well...its serious! Really serious, and I love it! That other little boy I was 'seeing', ha haaa...WTF was wrong with me, thats all I can think about!!! I just found the most perfect man, the man of my dreams, and I'm not letting him go...and I don't think I have to worry cause he isn't gonna let me go either. So what about my house??? Ha Haaa....well, I'm just gonna have to rent it out! So yes, I am moving to Santa Barbara...500 miles away or so, but I get ocean! With dolphins and whales...and like the hottest-buffest guy in the world! With the most amazing family, great personality and an awesome career, did I mention his body?!?!?! His most perfect body!!!!
 
Ok, well anyways. Yes. I am moving away and I think its so wonderful. Away from the fake Reno people and their drama, and away from the heat, and snow...to a much better place with a better atmosphere. I can't wait to get outta here-but unfortunately I have to wait. These things still take time, even if they seem so right and perfect. And as much as I am dreading this wait, it will be good for us in the end. And once I leave here...I can never really go back to this life. Even if I move back, it wont ever be the same. I will just have to be patient and wait, and it will be a perfect life. Besides, if we can both withstand the time and distance, it will make our relationship that much more amazing and awesome!

Getting Over It!

Seems like the hardest thing to do! OMG....why? WHY!?!?!?!? I cant stand feeling this way. So update: The stupid guy that I liked sooooo much, well apparently he has better things to do than show a little attention to a girl that he's kinda/sorta dating, lets just be friends. Huh, right? So, in chick language that equals-your too needy and I just need someone to fuck on the side. And what the fuck is with men and this 'friends' bullshit that they like to use as a cover up? Well, unfortunately I really like him...really really bad. That's where I need to get over it. But then I ask myself, why? Why do I like him sooo much, when there are so many other (older/mature) guys out there that would give me the world?!?!? I cant answer that. So I need to confront this guy and just lay it all on the table. He has no idea what he has done to my emotions and my feelings, so I feel like I need to let him know, then I think I can move on. I'm pretty sure that's part of my problem, is that he has no clue. At least that's how he's acting. Another one bites the dust I guess....

Well, speaking of guys that would give me the world...I think I found one in this mess of things. Another good friend of mine recommended that I talk to him because he felt that he could relate to what I was going throu. So I did....no harm right, he lives in California. Wow...! This innocent rant of a broken hearted conversation has flipped into so much more. I had not expected this at all. He is one of the sweetest, most caring, loving guys that I have ever met. One problem thou, he lives 9 hours away....ROAD TRIP! But yea, he is coming up to visit me in 2 weeks!!!

So one Sunday, I'm just a mess...laying in bed around noon, depressed and sad and crying...like I have been. So this guy messages me, just how ya doing...so I'm honest. What does he do...the one thing that I needed the most and I didn't even know it, a picture of his dog with that sad face. And then we just kinda hit it off from there. Talk every day, every night. Next thing I know, after a week of non-stop talking to each other, he wants me to be in his life-permanently! I should be scared, I mean...I just met this guy a couple weeks ago on the internet and he wants to have a life with me. I told him to wait at least until we meet each other in person. He's flying up here to see me in 2 weeks now!!!I'm really excited, at first I didn't know what to think, but now I'm really happy. So now the problem is a long distance relationship, which I do not want to do, and my house. I just bought it, so moving is almost out of the question! But this guy also has a career and a solid job that he can't really leave, plus he lives on the ocean, who would want to give that up? I know that I really have nothing here, so moving doesn't sound at all that bad. Its just now I'm a little worried cause the last guy came and went so fast, and I don't want to be stuck in a place where I have to start all over if things don't work out. Its really risky. So I guess I'm gonna attempt to give it about a year or so and then see what happens. If I find that I can't live without him, then yea...I'll move.

So...so far, that's my life. Doing shitty...just trying to get back into the scene and get into the social friendship network. After the last 5-6 years moved without me, I need to restart. I need to find myself, and who I am and just restart and be me!

Love Sick!

So here I am...sicker than a dog over a guy! I never, ever, thought that I would be the type of person that could catch this dreadful disease. Its the new guy too...the one I met roughly a month and a half ago. I am so wrapped up in emotions over him that its been driving me crazy. I can't honestly say it's love, its way too soon to really blame that, I feel like it is, but I know its too soon and it could just be an infatuation. He just really made me feel so complete when we first met, and now it seems to have slowly tapered off into nothing. So now I haven't heard from him in the last 24-48 hours and after what I recall as the best sex I've ever had. But it's not all about the sex, right?-well for me, I take that pretty seriously. I wonder if I'm missing something, or if there is something wrong that I'm not aware of? Some people are saying that I'm acting way too clingy for the time frame that its been. Some say that I need to back off and let him come to me since it seems like I do all the pursuing. Then, what I should consider the most obvious is that I need to wait until the ex is out before I start thinking serious terms. Yes, the ex is still around. I've actually moved into my game room, I know-WTF are you doing sleeping on a futon in the game room in your own house!?!?!?!?!? Its what I have to do, sacrifices that I need to make cause he ain't gonna move into another room and sacrifice his precious bed...you would think that he would want to do that for me anyways.

So back to reality.

Since this new guy has been drifting off, at first I thought that he was maybe seeing someone else. But then he said he wasn't, and there was really no evidence and he didn't seem like a liar at all. He just happens to be suddenly extremely busy all the time! Well, and this new thing just dropped in his lap that could possibly change his future as far as his career goes. I really hope it works, but I have my doubts. But being the person I am, I have learned that you just need to keep certain opinions to yourself, because some things actually do work out. So this new thing has been taking up a lot of his free time, and then with summer around the corner his work has been a lot more demanding. So of course his free time will be relaxing, that's what I would do I guess.

So going forward (I might change my mind depending on the situation) I just might have to tell him that I would like to get to know him more and that when he has more free time for me, to just call me. I can't do the 'half' relationship that we are doing. Honestly I have no idea what kind of relationship we are even in! I don't know how serious he wants to take things. I know he wants to go slow until I get my ex situation taken care of, but we are not taking it slow at all. Slow is not equal to nonexistent. I want to be his friend at least, and get to know him a lot more that's for sure. But its hard to be friends with someone that doesn't hold a conversation at all, and seems to forget about you a lot. I guess that means I'm not as 'perfect' as I once was I was.