...they are actually in all reality are in the dumps! I just feel like I need a new life, i fucked this one up and I'm too far down the road to fix it. Why? I mean, I have every reason to complain about my life and at the same time, no room to complain at all!
First of all, I have a job, and I should be grateful, I am to a point. And not just any job, but a very good paying job at that. The problem thou is that I am at the bottom of my position and everything I do to attempt to advance has been thrown in my face. I'm told that I don't try hard enough, and I need to focus. I feel like a failure at my job, and my co-workers seem to get annoyed with me.
My personal life, I have friends...but no one that I'm very close to. Everyone else has a life, career, school, kids, family...etc...what do I have? 3 fucking cats and a dog! When I go out with my friends, sometimes I even feel used, for just a booty call, or dinner and a movie, or something I feel used about. I don't feel like I have much of a personal life at all. I tried to hang out with a few people that I like to hang out with, and now they never call or anything...I feel like something happened that made them not like me as a social person.
My Love Life....sucks! I'm in love with someone and I'm not even sure how to go about it. I've liked this guy for well over 4-5 years. I live with my ex and I cant get him to move out and he makes it hard to move on cause he cares so much about me and I just don't have the same feelings. It's sooo hard to live with the same person for 6 years and then change your lifestyle suddenly...I'm still not sure how to handle it. And then when the water finally clears, do I even want to try another stupid relationship again? Ugh!!!
Anyways...it's life.
