Thursday, April 28, 2011

Spinning Out of Control!

How! How did this happen, and so quickly. I mean, one minute I’m in a 5 year relationship, then it's over...but the ex doesn’t want to leave. So I let him stay-big mistake. Then after a year, I run into what I think is the most incredible guy that I've met in a long, long time. Who cares that he is 6 years younger than I am…he is really hot, very sweet, and has his shit together. Pretty rare for his age I think. He tells me that he likes girls that are responsible and don’t have drama…well, guess what! I think I have drama with my stupid ex still in the house, AND we still sleep in the same bed. What the hell am I supposed to do here!?!?!?!?! I know, I know….kick him out. But there are all these ‘buts=what if it doesnt work out with this new guy, or what if I don't like living by myself...' and even before I met this amazing guy, my other buddy told me to kick the ex out, to not even let him move into my new place! The ex is hard to convince to move on thou. It’s really hard to convince him to leave. He is still a good friend,

and I really hope that he can move on without relying on me so much. I guess first things first...buy a bed for myself. I need to still remember focus on getting what I want for me! Not to go and do stuff because of someone else. So think about my actions, analyze the best situation for myself and go!!!