Missing in my life.

It’s been a long time…

…and so many things have happened!!! But not exactly what I want. Still no kids, and boy oh boy, I really want to have kids. 

 I’m more than ready to be a mom and have someone to take care of. All of my friends, even my little brother, have kids now. It makes me super sad knowing that there might be something wrong with me and that I might just be unable to give life, to create a remarkable being. On a side note, Crossfit is going really well, I really love it! Love my job, can’t complain much there. Love my husband, he is really great! Love my dog, my life (except for the kid part), and just everything around me. I started school…YEAY!!!...it’s online school, but hey, it’s school. So I’m working towards a degree to get myself going somewhere that matters and where I can actually make really good money. Fitness is great, got some good accomplishments going, I need to make a serious list of goals though. Diet is ok…it was really good for a while, then went bad, and now it’s so-so.

 

 TV is great…went to Comic-Con this year again, it was our second time. Soo exciting, saw a lot of people! Cast of Supernatural, cast of Arrow and The Flash, the cast of Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D and the full Avengers cast. Saw Sons of Anarchy cast (minus Jax), and Seth Green. Ninja Turtles pizza guy Ernie Reyes Jr. and even Weird Al Yankovic!  So it was definitely really exciting and fun this year.

More adventures to come…hopefully wrapped up in a blanket with a little one.

2014-Year of the BadAss!

2014-The year of the bad-ass!

Well, here it is…2014! I thought I would be pregnant by now, but unfortunately that hasn’t happened. So instead, I’m going to brush up on my other skills. I will be jumping head into CrossFit and learning to ride a motorcycle this year!

So I started Crossfit around July 2013…but didn’t really go full on. I started out slow and cautious, since I had soooo many people warn me about how dangerous the sport could be. After about September, I think I started to take it a little seriously. Then I got sick in December, and we went on vacation so I practically missed the entire month! A huge setback. Once January started, I started right back up. More determined to move forward and not be last place in everything that I attempted. Here it is in March, and the Crossfit games have barely started. The first week I attempted the workout and really surprised myself. I completed one of my goals…to complete a workout with the RX weight:  A 10 minute AMRAP (as many reps as possible) of 30 Double Under’s and 15 Power Snatch’s.  The is the second week and now it’s Overhead Squats and Chest-to-bar pull ups. I can barely do a max OHS with 55lbs, the RX is 65lbs for the ladies. Chest-to-bar is a whole other issue…I am still working on just doing kipping pull-ups! So I won’t be able to do even one Chest-to-bar. Just one more thing to work on for my Crossfit Bucket List. First thing was getting the Double Unders. Got that down! Next thing I guess is going to be the Toes-to-bar, I almost have that one. Then the rest that I need to work on will be; kipping pull-ups, strict pull-ups, muscle ups, ring-dips, hand-stands and hand-stand push-ups…and I think that’s it. The OHS I seem to have, just gotta work on balance, and weight...we'll see how it goes!

Libra Outlook for 2014!

Libra

If you've been a sad and solo Libra, fear not; relationships take ridiculously high precedence in 2014! You surely will not be alone. If you're already hitched, expect a series of mind-blowing lessons and non-stop insight in the realms of romance and long-term commitment. This is your year to uncover and break through any codependent patterns once and for all. If you've been struggling with commitment issues (what Libra, doesn't?) you will have tremendous support from Saturn and the Nodes of Fate to keep you from your usual fence sitting. The big shift takes place in March when the North Node of Fate moves into your constellation triggering a series of very fated, life-altering events and destined relationships that will unfold over the next few years. All of your relationships (not just romantic) will be radically transformed, as will you. The themes of balance, justice, and beauty will be all consuming starting in March when the North Node moves into Libra. You'll feel right in your element as others will also be learning all about the art of diplomacy and compromise with you for a change. Life is about to feel infinitely sweeter in 2014.

Jupiter continues to bring luck and bounty to your career zone during the first half of the year, so take full advantage of this fortunate influence while its hot. The attention and accolades that began last year will continue to take you and your professional status to the next level. If you've been hemming and hawing about how to put yourself out there in the world, this is your year to decide and go for it! No more excuses, Libra -- you've got way too many gorgeous gifts to share. Plus, you definitely do no want to miss this amazing opportunity that comes only once every 12 years. After July, you'll have the same lucky bonus in your house of goals and long-term plans and ambition. This will just strengthen the success that started last summer.

Your social life is about to explode with more networking opportunities and party invites than you will know what to do with, Libra. Starting this summer your friends and social zone are highlighted for the next twelve months. The people you meet will seem like angels and kindred spirits. Your playful and childlike nature is accentuated during this time and life is just filled with fun and pleasure. Your creativity is top notch this year as well because you're feeling more passionate and driven than you have felt in ages. 

This is definitely a year for many splendid things. 

Libra!

2013...what a great year!

So...this last year, 2013...what an amazing year! So many awesome things have happened, and I am too excited to see what this next year will bring!  Lets see...well, I had a wonderful surprise in January when I found out that I was pregnant...only to miscarry in February.


 Since that gave Jon and I a reality check, we decided that we really should get married and have children since we wanted to start a family, and we wanted to do it right! So, we planned our wedding...for APRIL!!!! Yes, we got married!

 It was a beautiful wedding on the Beach, just what I always wanted. And I had a surprise visit from my Uncle Mike, and Victoria Parker! Then we got to spend our Honeymoon in none other than Disneyland!!! We also decided to go to the San Diego Zoo and Sea World as well. It was a lot of fun.

Well, after we got our life started together, we just had a lot of fun this entire year. We got to go to Comic Con for our first time. Saw the main cast of Captain America!!! Even saw Samuel L Jackson! We also got to see the cast of True Blood, American Dad and Family Guy. I think that out of all we liked, the Cartoon Artists and the Voice Actors were the best! We got to hear/see Grey DeLisle, Kari Wahlgren, Fred Tatasciore, Scott Menville, Christopher Cox, Michael Leon-Wooley and a special appearance by Chuck McCann! We only ended up going for just the one day (Saturday), but next year we plan at least three days. 

Jon won both of his Powerlifting Competitions! Such a huge accomplishment for him, I am very proud!

 Well, after that we did Disneyland again for my birthday, and also it was Halloween themed as well. Dressed up as Alice in Wonderland for Halloween, Jon decided to do Raphael (TMNT). It was classic! Thanksgiving with Jon's dad and Lori. Andy decided to move down from Reno and stay with us for a while, he was planning on moving to Austin, TX eventually...so we'll see how that pans out. Both of us got our first Tablets! I got the Surface Pro 2, and Jon ended up getting the Dell Venue 8 Pro. Love them both! 

  I decided to start doing Crossfit, and boy do I love it so much! I don't think I'll ever join another gym in my life. I get to meet awesome people, and become stronger!

We decided to also see Medieval times in Buena Vista, where I got to hold the actual Legend of Zelda Master Sword and Shield!!! Then another awesome Disneyland trip, this time it was Christmas themed.

 Christmas was with Jon's mom and Bill...that was so much fun! Got Jon his Xbox One and some other fun stuff, and here we are...the end of the year. Lets do this 2014!

My New Life

2012-Year in Review

Well, here I am, almost a year later from my last post, and now that I look back, I am so blessed in the things that have come my way. I find I have the most wonderful life. This last year I moved 530 miles with my beloved dog Chai to be with my boyfriend. We've shared our one year anniversary, each-others birthdays, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years! We also got a Hulk Truck and a nice Condo that were living in now...still only a 10 min walk to the beach! I am now a full California girl...got my drivers license, hotwheelz plates, and even changed my phone number!
In my move here to beautiful southern California, I have lost as well. My family seems so distant and unwelcoming. My mother hasn't talked to me in months, and my brother disowned me for silly reasons that I fear he will only regret in the coming years. I am still in contact with my 'foster' parents. I do talk to them here and there. I am so happy that they are still in my life. I miss all my friends very much, so I might plan a trip to see them!
My job is very good...I actually quit the job that I got when I moved here and got another the next day. Pretty amazing in this economy! Love my new job, it's the same thing I was doing before...banking...but it's full time now, and I'm still in the position where I'm not going to advance to anything or make anymore money anytime soon, as in the next 5-10 years or so. So I still need to get on board with a career. Which brings me to my next stop...school! I have applied at the community college here and I have gotten approved for a student aid. I have also taken the placement tests so I know where to start. I have only to do an orientation class and also take a academic advising class in order to proceed with taking my actual classes to start my path of getting a degree. I think that a lot of people don't think that I was going to go this far, cause whenever I mention what I've done it seems to surprise everyone. I need to do this, and finish this...this is my new goal this year as well as getting myself out of the crazy debt-hole that I've seem so create.

Diet and fitness is good...although fitness needs a lot more work. I seem to lack motivation at times to go to the gym, and on top of that I feel embarrassed to go as well. I just don't like being there when there is a lot of people, and since it's the new year, the gym's are usually crammed up by new years resolution people. It should calm down a bit within a month. I just need to kick my butt into gear and go!
So this last year has taught me much, and I still have more to learn. This next year I have many plans and I look forward to a lot of adventures. I want to be a bit more active in doing things like hiking, camping, walking on the beach...I also want to take a trip to Reno to see all my friends that I miss so much! I need to get this school thing going for me this next year, seriously get it going. Comic-Con is also in the works, and we hope to get tickets to go in July. Disneyland, and San Diego this year hopefully too...and planning for a future with my boyfriend.Yeay for 2013!!!

Libra Outlook for 2013!

Libra

2013 brings you nothing short of a total rebirth, Libra. You can finally bid farewell to the heavy and austere presence of Saturn in your stars since late 2009. You have had enough lessons in love and commitment to last you a lifetime. Now you're ready to put those lessons to the test by pursuing your true calling and passion. No longer will you be satisfied with simply scratching the surface of life. You're prepared to go as deep as necessary to create something of lasting value. You want nothing less than the truth, and nothing short of profound meaning.

You'll be putting more attention and importance on finances than you have in a long time now that Saturn has moved on to your money zone. This is the year to finally work on a budget and devise sound economic strategies for increasing your income without working yourself to the bone. This is an excellent time to get out of debt as much as you possibly can so that you can save your pennies for the whirlwind of change on deck in 2013. The eclipses will rock your money sectors, so be prepared for sweeping gains and losses, and plan accordingly.
You'll continue to break out of any codependent relationship ruts with the ongoing influence of Pluto and Uranus sparring in the cosmos. You've certainly learned how important it is to value your authenticity and independence in all of your dealings with others. No longer will you fall prey to being too nice. You see how crucial it is to set your limits, draw your lines in the sand and commit without wavering. Saturn taught you to get off the fence and take a firm stand. This is how you gain respect. Your diplomacy and charm will always serve you well, but you realize now that they must be backed by the iron fist in the velvet glove.

The End...

My old life, me...living in Reno, is officially over! I moved, yes...to be with my boyfriend in Santa Barbara! So I will start fresh and new. No more depressing stuff, or feeling down like crap, no more cold days and nights, no more trying to drive in the snow, no more 100 degree summers...goodbye, the Biggest Little City in the World. I just have to say, that I am very blessed...and will now be starting a new blog! Hello Santa Barbara; The American Riviera, or I should say Goleta; The Good Land! I'm goin California Crazy!

Libra Outlook for 2012

Libra

Although many have secretly been dreading the arrival of 2012, you've personally been looking forward to it. That's because karmic taskmaster Saturn has been doing a number on your life over the past two-plus years. Relationship lessons have been relentless throughout this time. If you haven't made important decisions about where to commit - and where to quit - these are your final months to do so. Don't wait another 30 years to get clear on what you truly want in your relationships. You'll be in the throes of Saturn's testing until October, when it moves into your neighboring sign, Scorpio. Consider this your final exam!

Jupiter will be in its fellow Venus-ruled sign of Taurus, making a magical aspect to your stars for a good portion of 2012. Jupiter's lucky presence in your sector of sexuality, transformation and other people's money brings every material and emotional resource you could ever want or need. You'll have no problem attracting the proper support to fund your current or future projects. This is also the year for coming into your true power by transforming all the dead weight of your past. Change looks good on you, Libra. You've been shedding layers of karma, and now you're about to reap the wonders of renewal.

World travel beckons in 2012, so pack your bags! The spring-summer eclipse patterns activate your travel sector in May and June, and Venus is in your travel sector between April and August. During the retrograde phase in May and June, you may want to be lay low or avoid more intricate itineraries. Mars will be spending the entire first half of the year in your sector of sleep, unconscious processes and dreams. This could create some inner turbulence (if not all-out insomnia) if you don't give yourself enough expressive and physical outlets. As always, it's about finding balance, Libra.

Autumn is here...

Finally too! I love the fall, except it just a preparation for everything that's going to die or dying. But everything is so beautiful, the colors and the air. At least where I live, the one week of spring we get and the month of fall is the best time here.

Reno to Santa Barbara

Actually its more like Sparks to Goleta...but hey, its close enough. So....life! Well, lets see...from my previous rant, I actually found my older/mature guy. Yup!-- and no, I didn't rush-into-another-relationship-just-to-have-companionship-situation either! Although I am a lot more cautious than I was with the last couple of guys thou!!!

...But lets just say that it doesn't get any more perfect than a Keebler, and I'm not talkin about the cookies even thou he's good enough to eat like a cookie! So if you haven't guessed, that guy from Cali, well...its serious! Really serious, and I love it! That other little boy I was 'seeing', ha haaa...WTF was wrong with me, thats all I can think about!!! I just found the most perfect man, the man of my dreams, and I'm not letting him go...and I don't think I have to worry cause he isn't gonna let me go either. So what about my house??? Ha Haaa....well, I'm just gonna have to rent it out! So yes, I am moving to Santa Barbara...500 miles away or so, but I get ocean! With dolphins and whales...and like the hottest-buffest guy in the world! With the most amazing family, great personality and an awesome career, did I mention his body?!?!?! His most perfect body!!!!
 
Ok, well anyways. Yes. I am moving away and I think its so wonderful. Away from the fake Reno people and their drama, and away from the heat, and snow...to a much better place with a better atmosphere. I can't wait to get outta here-but unfortunately I have to wait. These things still take time, even if they seem so right and perfect. And as much as I am dreading this wait, it will be good for us in the end. And once I leave here...I can never really go back to this life. Even if I move back, it wont ever be the same. I will just have to be patient and wait, and it will be a perfect life. Besides, if we can both withstand the time and distance, it will make our relationship that much more amazing and awesome!

Getting Over It!

Seems like the hardest thing to do! OMG....why? WHY!?!?!?!? I cant stand feeling this way. So update: The stupid guy that I liked sooooo much, well apparently he has better things to do than show a little attention to a girl that he's kinda/sorta dating, lets just be friends. Huh, right? So, in chick language that equals-your too needy and I just need someone to fuck on the side. And what the fuck is with men and this 'friends' bullshit that they like to use as a cover up? Well, unfortunately I really like him...really really bad. That's where I need to get over it. But then I ask myself, why? Why do I like him sooo much, when there are so many other (older/mature) guys out there that would give me the world?!?!? I cant answer that. So I need to confront this guy and just lay it all on the table. He has no idea what he has done to my emotions and my feelings, so I feel like I need to let him know, then I think I can move on. I'm pretty sure that's part of my problem, is that he has no clue. At least that's how he's acting. Another one bites the dust I guess....

Well, speaking of guys that would give me the world...I think I found one in this mess of things. Another good friend of mine recommended that I talk to him because he felt that he could relate to what I was going throu. So I did....no harm right, he lives in California. Wow...! This innocent rant of a broken hearted conversation has flipped into so much more. I had not expected this at all. He is one of the sweetest, most caring, loving guys that I have ever met. One problem thou, he lives 9 hours away....ROAD TRIP! But yea, he is coming up to visit me in 2 weeks!!!

So one Sunday, I'm just a mess...laying in bed around noon, depressed and sad and crying...like I have been. So this guy messages me, just how ya doing...so I'm honest. What does he do...the one thing that I needed the most and I didn't even know it, a picture of his dog with that sad face. And then we just kinda hit it off from there. Talk every day, every night. Next thing I know, after a week of non-stop talking to each other, he wants me to be in his life-permanently! I should be scared, I mean...I just met this guy a couple weeks ago on the internet and he wants to have a life with me. I told him to wait at least until we meet each other in person. He's flying up here to see me in 2 weeks now!!!I'm really excited, at first I didn't know what to think, but now I'm really happy. So now the problem is a long distance relationship, which I do not want to do, and my house. I just bought it, so moving is almost out of the question! But this guy also has a career and a solid job that he can't really leave, plus he lives on the ocean, who would want to give that up? I know that I really have nothing here, so moving doesn't sound at all that bad. Its just now I'm a little worried cause the last guy came and went so fast, and I don't want to be stuck in a place where I have to start all over if things don't work out. Its really risky. So I guess I'm gonna attempt to give it about a year or so and then see what happens. If I find that I can't live without him, then yea...I'll move.

So...so far, that's my life. Doing shitty...just trying to get back into the scene and get into the social friendship network. After the last 5-6 years moved without me, I need to restart. I need to find myself, and who I am and just restart and be me!

Love Sick!

So here I am...sicker than a dog over a guy! I never, ever, thought that I would be the type of person that could catch this dreadful disease. Its the new guy too...the one I met roughly a month and a half ago. I am so wrapped up in emotions over him that its been driving me crazy. I can't honestly say it's love, its way too soon to really blame that, I feel like it is, but I know its too soon and it could just be an infatuation. He just really made me feel so complete when we first met, and now it seems to have slowly tapered off into nothing. So now I haven't heard from him in the last 24-48 hours and after what I recall as the best sex I've ever had. But it's not all about the sex, right?-well for me, I take that pretty seriously. I wonder if I'm missing something, or if there is something wrong that I'm not aware of? Some people are saying that I'm acting way too clingy for the time frame that its been. Some say that I need to back off and let him come to me since it seems like I do all the pursuing. Then, what I should consider the most obvious is that I need to wait until the ex is out before I start thinking serious terms. Yes, the ex is still around. I've actually moved into my game room, I know-WTF are you doing sleeping on a futon in the game room in your own house!?!?!?!?!? Its what I have to do, sacrifices that I need to make cause he ain't gonna move into another room and sacrifice his precious bed...you would think that he would want to do that for me anyways.

So back to reality.

Since this new guy has been drifting off, at first I thought that he was maybe seeing someone else. But then he said he wasn't, and there was really no evidence and he didn't seem like a liar at all. He just happens to be suddenly extremely busy all the time! Well, and this new thing just dropped in his lap that could possibly change his future as far as his career goes. I really hope it works, but I have my doubts. But being the person I am, I have learned that you just need to keep certain opinions to yourself, because some things actually do work out. So this new thing has been taking up a lot of his free time, and then with summer around the corner his work has been a lot more demanding. So of course his free time will be relaxing, that's what I would do I guess.

So going forward (I might change my mind depending on the situation) I just might have to tell him that I would like to get to know him more and that when he has more free time for me, to just call me. I can't do the 'half' relationship that we are doing. Honestly I have no idea what kind of relationship we are even in! I don't know how serious he wants to take things. I know he wants to go slow until I get my ex situation taken care of, but we are not taking it slow at all. Slow is not equal to nonexistent. I want to be his friend at least, and get to know him a lot more that's for sure. But its hard to be friends with someone that doesn't hold a conversation at all, and seems to forget about you a lot. I guess that means I'm not as 'perfect' as I once was I was.

Spinning Out of Control!

How! How did this happen, and so quickly. I mean, one minute I’m in a 5 year relationship, then it's over...but the ex doesn’t want to leave. So I let him stay-big mistake. Then after a year, I run into what I think is the most incredible guy that I've met in a long, long time. Who cares that he is 6 years younger than I am…he is really hot, very sweet, and has his shit together. Pretty rare for his age I think. He tells me that he likes girls that are responsible and don’t have drama…well, guess what! I think I have drama with my stupid ex still in the house, AND we still sleep in the same bed. What the hell am I supposed to do here!?!?!?!?! I know, I know….kick him out. But there are all these ‘buts=what if it doesnt work out with this new guy, or what if I don't like living by myself...' and even before I met this amazing guy, my other buddy told me to kick the ex out, to not even let him move into my new place! The ex is hard to convince to move on thou. It’s really hard to convince him to leave. He is still a good friend,

and I really hope that he can move on without relying on me so much. I guess first things first...buy a bed for myself. I need to still remember focus on getting what I want for me! Not to go and do stuff because of someone else. So think about my actions, analyze the best situation for myself and go!!!

Welcome Home!

So I have officially moved all my stuff to my first home!!! And let me tell you, that after a week of painting the whole thing, It looks amazing and was worth it. I painted the living room twice, and the Master bedroom twice as well, and I ended up

painting a hallway black,  the colors all over look amazing, plus an extra trip or two to the paint store to hang out with the hot paint guy was also worth it ;) So now that I have moved in, what to do with my living situation. My 'roommie' has moved his bed into the master bedroom. First of all, I don't have a bed of my own, and second of all it wouldn't be able to fit anywhere else. I think I might have to crash in the living room until we can get the whole thing straightened out. I think I would like it in my new place by myself, I might get more done. I mean, he even took off 2 days of work and just lectured me on I am wasting my time painting and not even helping. If he would've helped me then I might have had all the walls painted. I just have the window sills and the fireplace left to do, little stuff. And now that a lot of my crap is in here, I get to sort and separate and get rid of the crap. I am looking for a good dining room table, since I had a bar area at the last place and no table, now I need the table. I found a few that I think I like, lets hope they are pretty cheap. I don't have very much left after I put the down on my house and paid some stuff off too. But I think it was well worth it. I still need to read my doc's so I know who to pay...lol..., anyways Love my new home, I think I will call it the House of Hyrule. I now need to organize, finish painting, start the backyard project, and get my crazy room-mate situation under control. Wish me luck!!!!

When things are looking up...

...they are actually in all reality are in the dumps! I just feel like I need a new life, i fucked this one up and I'm too far down the road to fix it. Why? I mean, I have every reason to complain about my life and at the same time, no room to complain at all!
First of all, I have a job, and I should be grateful, I am to a point. And not just any job, but a very good paying job at that. The problem thou is that I am at the bottom of my position and everything I do to attempt to advance has been thrown in my face. I'm told that I don't try hard enough, and I need to focus. I feel like a failure at my job, and my co-workers seem to get annoyed with me.
My personal life, I have friends...but no one that I'm very close to. Everyone else has a life, career, school, kids, family...etc...what do I have? 3 fucking cats and a dog! When I go out with my friends, sometimes I even feel used, for just a booty call, or dinner and a movie, or something I feel used about. I don't feel like I have much of a personal life at all. I tried to hang out with a few people that I like to hang out with, and now they never call or anything...I feel like something happened that made them not like me as a social person.
My Love Life....sucks! I'm in love with someone and I'm not even sure how to go about it. I've liked this guy for well over 4-5 years. I live with my ex and I cant get him to move out and he makes it hard to move on cause he cares so much about me and I just don't have the same feelings. It's sooo hard to live with the same person for 6 years and then change your lifestyle suddenly...I'm still not sure how to handle it. And then when the water finally clears, do I even want to try another stupid relationship again? Ugh!!!

Anyways...it's life.

January 2011!

Well, now that the new year is here...and well on it's way, I need to determine what I want to accomplish this year.

So for starters, the biggest thing that I'm involved in right now is getting my house. I just got notified yesterday that we are waiting on the appraisal for the bank (the house is a short sale), and we should be well on our way! So looking at moving in the first week of March, that would be nice. Now I need to get someone to take over my place and give notice to my lady. I feel kinda bad but hey, I need to move on too. What else....gonna do Zumba. Starting today I will take an 8 classes and then hopefully get into the Hip Hop Dance classes...if I can get my stamina up to par. Next after moving, I need to get with my 'room-mate/ex' and move him out. If were not together anymore, than we really need to part ways. Then after John is gone, I really need to live on my own for a bit...I know Jesse wants to start things up, but I still want some time to really be on my own.

When I move and on my own, I will end up with just my cat Anka and my little dog Chai, and I would also really like to start walking him every day like a good doggie parent. It's hard when it's cold outside and it gets dark. Oh well...shouldn't matter.

I also want to get plans ready for my backyard and get that started! I have an idea to do a Japanese garden in the back and along the walkway. Inside in my smaller bedroom I really want to just theme that room for whatever is going on at that time of year, that will be my guest room. Then the bigger second bedroom I think I wanna do my gaming room, and that will be crazy, not really themed, just put some cool stuff up. And then my living room isn't so big, not compared to the one I'm in right now, but I'm thinking pool table. Oh yes...that would be nice!

As far as my job goes...well, I am really disappointed at myself for not really putting myself out there. Everyone that has been in my position since I started has moved up. And I have tried 3 times to get myself going, and my self confidence has gone out the window, so I need to build myself back up and get it going. No more feeling sorry, and doubting myself. I need to jump in head first and go!!!

So....so far I got for this year: House-Zumba-Work Work Work-Walk Chai-John moved out-Game Room-Themed Room-Japanese Garden-Pool Table-and still go out and have fun downtown during the holidays!

So, lets see how this goes!

Libra Outlook for 2011

Libra

Oh the lessons you have endured over the course of 2010. You're not the same people-pleasing darling you were a mere 12 months ago. On the contrary darling -- you are in the midst of a powerful process of cultivating the kind of backbone that makes greatness. Thanks to big daddy Saturn you're learning your lessons well in relinquishing laziness, strengthening discipline, and realizing your authority. You're taking yourself more seriously in the arenas where it matters most. (Read: career and getting paid what you're worth.)

Relationships bring plenty of passion, drama and unexpected plot twists especially during the spring. By the time May rolls around you'll be dealing with an unprecedented amount of planetary energy firing up your relationship sector. With six planets including Venus, your ruler and Jupiter, the planet of abundance lining up in your partnership sector you'll be anything but lonely. The challenge lies in staying true to your own needs without getting lost in the persuasive me-me-me demands of your significant others.

Although some of Saturn's lessons will weigh in on a heavier note and perhaps depriving you of any former easy-outs or shortcuts, you have the uncanny ability to take it all in stride. There's something to be said for the inherent Libran laid-back approach to life's challenges. But under current planetary duress you may join the ranks of the stressful millions in your quest for regaining inner peace and unshakable equilibrium. Forever striving for that elusive balance, you're being put through the cosmic ringer when it comes to finding and holding your own with others. But you will get there Libra -- just you wait and see!

Christmas and the End of a Decade!

Well, wow! First of all, it's been since April when I last wrote about anything! Lets see, John and I broke up back in May...that was fun...Jesse and I are a bit closer than before ;) Haven't really been to the gym all summer, went with Simone a couple of times, that was fun, and nice! Mom has been on and off crazy as usual. Still workin, which is good right now, John is still living with me even thou, and I should be getting into a house hopefully soon! But my issue now is that I really don't know if I should let John move in with me. Everyone of my friends are telling me not to let him move, and I know it would be best (emotionally) if I don't. Financially it would be good for him to stay, but then he has to move out again within 6months to a year, and honestly I think he's just gonna try to prolong that cause it really is convenient for the both of us. But also, if he's there I can't really try to be on my own and have the time for myself, plus I can't really see anyone else cause that would be hella awkward for everyone involved. So, yea...that's my crap right now.

Other than that...Christmas is literally right around the corner and next stop is good old New Years! Christmas I think will be fun! I don't have much of a tree or presents, but that's OK, I think it will be a great time. Then I need to get my resolution list together for the upcoming year, last years list I did pretty good on. I went places, did things...and had a lot of fun! So hopefully I can do more stuff this next year and maybe get my shit together! and maybe write more in the mean time!!!!